Challenges To Face
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| Christchurch 4 weeks Prior to Earthquake |
After 12 hour work days and being inside a 16 mile radius for nearly 90 days straight, it is enough to drive anyone crazy. With the occasional rocket attack and the stress of all work and no play, the days blend together and daydreams of far away destinations take place. Being deployed in Bagram, Afghanistan as a Department of the Army civilian for nearly 18 months, it has been worth the sacrifice of supporting the military and the war effort but challenging indeed.
Freedom is spinning the wheels and living the dream, especially when living and working in a war zone. This statement became true when I realized that all I wanted to do was mountain bike every day while on Rest and Recuperation (R&R)! Before coming to Afghanistan in October 2009 I had the best summer, riding single track all over Maryland, Virginia, Missouri and Utah but my fitness level had waned over the time spent here in the desert.
I wondered if this was too big of an endeavor for me to bite off, even while in the planning stages but the Pacific Cycles manager Axel Reiser encouraged me to join the group and said that it would be challenging and fun! Bagram is mostly flat, with a few hills to play around on and with the rainy, cold weather I hadn’t biked much before going on this trip. My fitness level was average at best and didn’t train as much as I had liked or should have before flying off to New Zealand. I had no idea what I was about to discover while on this 14-day mountain biking trip.
Anxiety of what challenges I was to face began to build during the 21 hours in the air from Afghanistan to New Zealand. Not knowing what to expect or what the group was going to be like was unsettling for me. I was told two Germans, two Swiss and a man from Australia was accompanying me on this mountain biking adventure. After hearing this, I thought I was definitely in for a full can of whoop ass! I landed in Christchurch airport and spent 2 nights on my own before I joined the mountain biking group on Monday afternoon.Axel, our mountain biking guide who was born in Germany, took us to a local Christchurch park called Bottle Lake Forest that had a smooth, flowy single track and a bike obstacle course at the end of our ride. It was a fun, easy day for us to try out our bikes, to bond with one another and ensure everything was ready for our couple weeks of riding. All anxiety was erased and replaced with excitement and a lot of laughter, even on the first day our group seemed to mesh extremely well.
Port Hills: It’s all About the Climb
The second day of the tour, we left from the Latimer hotel after a nice breakfast. It was great sitting with everyone and chatting before the adventure of the day. We drove to Halswell Quarry Park outside of Christchurch and rode up and up and up the many hills ahead. It was around a 2-hour continuous climb up to the peak of the mountain where Christchurch could be admired in the valley below. Miley Cyrus was not kidding when she said it is all about the climb!
I had the most difficult time climbing at a continuous pace and on top of it all, I was last. It was frustrating! There were quite a few times I had to walk the bike up the hill and at one point I felt like crying because I was so angry with myself due to my poor climbing skills and lack of endurance. I managed to underestimate the difficulty of this mountain biking trip. The mountain bike guide (delete I already introduced him as the guide) Axel would ride back down to check on me and ride for a bit. He would encourage and talk to me about technique and how to stay in aerobic mode. He would often say there was only one more hill to go and then we would get to the rest point and there would be more!
We had really awesome bread, salad with blueberries, cherry tomatoes, peppers, mixed green lettuce, pomegranate juice, olive oil and balsamic mix. It was fresh and delicious! I had Swiss cheese and brie. Lovely lunch and great company after all of that work! After we restored some of our lost energy, we loaded all of our bikes and got on the road to drive to the next location.
Throughout the ride, I would say that everyone was really supportive and great to ride with. I was told to take my time and get there at my own pace, which was great advice.
Overcoming the Rocky Roads – Aoraki/Mt Cook
We arrived to Aoraki/Mt. Cook after a scenic drive past a large, beautiful aqua filled lake. It was a great clear day to observe Mt. Cook and some of the other mountain ranges that are similar to the Himalayas. I saw my first glacier today! The view was spectacular!!! We had the joy and lots of laughter while visiting the Observatory Center with all of the collected taxidermy animals and specimens that were on display.
| At the Beginning of the Rocky Road |
For at least an hour there was not a soul in sight and all that surrounded me were the mountains and thousands of rocks that spread before me. I would turn around and look at where I had just ridden and it would not appear as if I had gotten any closer to my destination. I was chasing a mirage and after a while I didn’t know if I was going in the right direction.
As I am climbing one of the hills, around the corner there is Deb, Matthias and Axel. Though I am excited to see my mountain bike group, I quickly acknowledged them but continued pedaling to the top because I didn’t want to lose my momentum or my motivation. Axel turned around and accompanied me as I pushed myself to complete this endeavor I set out to achieve.
I made it finally, as the sun’s light and warmth disappeared behind the mountain range. It was starting to get dark and the temperature dropped at least 10 degrees in the valley as I arrived at the end of the road where the sunlit Mt. Cook gleamed down at me. Strange enough it didn’t seem any closer than when I started but it was a spectacular view from where we were standing. It was definitely worth the difficulty I faced pedaling over those rocks. Axel took a few pictures of me with the mountains in the back drop and then we went rolling back downhill. It was getting dark, so Axel told me to hurry and advised me to allow speed to guide me down the rocks.
| Beginning of the Rock Road |
| Glenthorne Station View From Cabin |
| Glenthorne Station sheep, the guy in the middle is Big Ben |
Successful Downhill at the DH Gondola
The familiar silhouette of the Remarkables greeted us, the same ridge of Otago I had seen in the mountain biking movie, Follow Me. Our mountain bike guide, Phil announced that we were not far from Queenstown, a place known for its tourism, resorts and adrenaline junkie activities such as skydiving, bungee jumping and many other fun-filled activities.
After our long drive, we got situated in our hotel rooms and soon thereafter we opened a bottle of wine and drank a few glasses before dinner, while we admired the sun glistening on Lake Wakatipu and admired the spectacular view of the mountains. A relaxing evening was spent together downtown at one of the local restaurants and then it was time to rest for my big day at the Gondola Bike Park!
| Central Otago: Capturing a Sunset |
The beginner trail is smooth as butter, with small jumps and it flows up and down like a roller coaster. “Hammy’s Track” (shows this on the website with apostrophe) is a great place to learn cornering, riding berms, small jumps, steep yet easy descents and building confidence in mountain biking skills. The intermediate and expert riders have many trails to choose from, single black diamond trails “Terd Sandwich” and “Vertigo” and for the most daring downhiller, double black diamond tracks “Armageddon” and “Ant’s Track” are available.
Phil Oliver, our mountain biking guide, and also the business owner of Altitude Adventure Tours and partner of Henderson Cycles is located in Central Otago area town called Alexandra. He allowed me to tag along with him at the Gondola, mainly because I wanted to learn everything I could from him and I was going with or without him. This was my dream coming true and nothing was getting in the way of experiencing DH Gondola that I had heard so much about.
Having someone to learn from and ride with was off the charts! Phil has the patience of a teacher and enjoys sharing his knowledge to less experienced riders. As I rode the “Hammy’s Track” the first run I followed his lead and took cues from him. The second jaunt (was run) down the beginner’s trail, Phil followed behind me yelling out pointers and instructing me to lean my bike, dip my shoulders and use my hips for cornering. I was cornering and riding berms like I had never done before! It was scary but fun! From one day of riding downhill with Phil, I had built more skills and confidence that would come handy when I returned from my deployment in June (changed from Oct – Yaay).
I did 5 runs on the Hammy’s track, one on the Terd Sandwich track (because of the dirt that leaves stains on your arse and I experienced this) and one time down Vertigo trail. These last two are black diamond runs and I was amazed with what I was capable of doing. I managed to pedal and swoop down steep declines that I had never thought possible! Some drops I went down slow but quickly realized how much control I had using my front brakes. This DH Gondola day was monumental in my progress as a mountain biker, it was by far the highlight of my trip and better than I imagined it could be. Future downhill and possibly racing is on the horizon this summer, thanks to Phil and his superb teaching ability.
Humbled by Queen Charlotte
Our morning started earlier than usual; by 7 a.m. we were on the road driving to Picton to catch the ferry for our epic two-day ride on the infamous Queen Charlotte Track, which is respected as one of the best single tracks in NZ. As we were waiting on the dock, Matthias takes pictures of all of our bruises from our last few weeks of riding the South Island. It was fun to compare our scars with one another, not even knowing where they came from.
Many people were sitting around with their friends and families, stacks of colorful luggage of many shapes and sizes sitting on the pier. Our five mountain bikes were parked in a row, ready to be loaded onto the boat, which would take us to the beginning of our journey. We laughed and joked around as usual, this was our normal daily routine we grew accustomed to. Angelika, Matthias, Andreas, Phil and I got along so well and there was not a moment without laughter, jokes, taking funny pictures and enjoying each other’s company.
The ferry arrives to the dock; we all embark the vessel to find our way to the bottom in a half moon booth that we all shared. As the boat left the pier, Angelika and Andreas walked around observing the fellow passengers, enjoying the different outfits and facial expressions. At one point, Andreas pleaded with me to partake in his observations of people on the back of the boat and I wanted to know what was so funny. I followed Andreas and he was on target with his comments and scientific observations of human interaction and behavior. We stood in the middle of the threshold of the cabin door, watching a couple sitting on the bench looking miserable. Andreas and I proceeded around the deck of strangers and made up our own stories while laughing hysterically at what we came up with.
I settled back down in our comfortable seat with Phil and Angelika. Matthias was behind us in the other seat beginning to nod off. It was nearly a two hour ride and it was fun for the first hour but after a while, the stuffiness of the cab put me to sleep. With this group you had to beware if you fell asleep because it was guaranteed to be a camera snapping event. What did I tell you? “Click!” there went a flash and my eyes snapped open, yep Angelika got me once again! Sneaky bugger!
| Ship's Cove Let the Journey Begin |
We all popped onto our bikes and clipped into our pedals as we rode up the single track to the starting point. Out of the 12 days of the South Island, this day was by far the hottest, muggiest we had ever encountered in NZ. Sigh! This is probably where it all started to spiral downward quite fast for me. At this point, I was used to the idea of being last and knew that I would be challenged but low and behold I didn’t realize HOW MUCH I would be pushed to my limit.
As soon as we started the ride on Charlotte it was an instant climb up the mountain that went on for what seemed like eternity. It never ceased to amaze me that around every corner or bend, it was another incline to push myself up. Sweat was pouring from my face and my body was drenched in the first 5 minutes. My burning legs continued pushing, paying close attention to my increased heart rate and diminishing oxygen capacity. At this point I started to question my validity for being here on this mountain biking vacation.
| Spectacular View of Charlotte Sound |
Phil, our mountain bike guide, was extremely supportive and would come back to check on me, and then ride back to the group ahead. He tried talking me through the hills, telling me to keep a steady pace and that slow was alright. At one point, I was very quiet and not a peep came out of me for the fear of unleashing a cry of frustration and anger. I silenced my sobs as much as I could and took long, deep breaths to stay under control. Once I was alone and everyone was completely out of sight, the tears started falling and the voices continued to badger and ridicule my lack of experience, endurance and skill to keep up with the rest of the group. My mind was at war and my body was pushing as hard as it could, gasping for air and drinking water from the camelback as if my life depended on it.
At the half way point, the rest of the gang stopped at this great vista and as I rode by I said I would keep on going because I wanted to get ahead of them. Well, I realized when I flew down to the bottom of the steep hill; it was a mistake on my part they were not riding in behind me. They had stopped for lunch and I was dead against climbing back up the hill I just sped down. I sat under the bush and ate my peanut butter banana sandwich that Matthias so kindly made that morning. In my solitude, I ate in peace and thought about how much I hated this ride. It was good that I was alone because I needed to keep from breaking down in front of the group that had been great from the very beginning of this mountain biking trip.
| Phil Oliver, our mountain biking guide, a local Kiwi |
I stopped to take pictures along the way of bright red mushrooms, trees and the bike I was riding and tried to at least enjoy that part of the ride. We started our ride around 12:30 that afternoon and was finished by 4:30 or 5pm. When we got to the main road where it was a decline, I let myself roll as fast as I could and allowed the crisp breeze to dance around my damp body, cooling my taxed body from the day’s heat and humidity. That was the happiest moment, when I saw the Portage hotel below me as I glided down the paved road.
| My Bright Orange Mushroom |
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| Orange Mushrooms |
So many times this day, Queen Charlotte and I were in a constant fighting match, over and over I wanted to give up and say the F%$#! with it all but something inside me kept me moving forward. Was it pride, heart or stubbornness that I made it through this ride? Regardless of how I got to the finish, I made it. It didn’t matter how slow I was or how much I walked as long as I put one foot in front of the other. I was not racing the Swiss or the Germans; it was a race for my own life.
This day I realized how much more I was out of shape and how much I needed to improve my health. Many times as I walked up the hill pushing my bike with snot running down my face and quiet sobs escaping, my determination and tenacity would not let me give up. When I finally relaxed and had time to reflect on the day, I had accomplished so much more than I thought I ever could. I did it! That voice that was badgering, calling me names and making me feel terrible was all of a sudden gone. My true self stepped up to the plate and hit a home run, it didn’t matter how long it took just as long as I finished.
That evening Angelika, Phil and I did cannonballs into the pool and laughed to the point of tears. Everything that I was feeling bad about disappeared. The five of us got a few bottles of wine and sat on the pier watching the sun go down, as big, cumulus clouds rolled into the side of the mountains, casting this magic feel across the water. These people I was sitting on the pier with, were not just my mountain biking buddies but they had become really good friends of mine that I will cherish for years to come.
The next day ahead of us was the mother of all mountains to embrace. I don’t know how else to describe this mountain. I don’t know what changed this day but it was a like a different person emerged from the intimate encounter with Queen Charlotte the day before. No longer were the negative voices taunting me. Regardless of being last and all alone on the trail, I was finally content with where I was in mountain biking. Phil did come back to ride with me several times and even carried my bike up the mountain because I was winded and it was ridiculously steep.
My ego was put to rest and no longer badgering me. The second day no longer worried me. I finally accepted that it was what it was. All I could do was my best and that is what I did. The day before was ten times as worse for me and today all of sudden it was silent. True peace and an equanimous mind had finally emerged. This was a celebration for me!
We finished the 25k ride at high noon, Angelika, Matthias and Phil jumped into the lake. I put my legs in to wash off the dirt and mud but it was a little frigid for me. We cleaned up and got ready to hit the road for our last lunch together as a group. We stopped at an information center for me to get a bus ticket from Blenheim to Nelson. In a half hour we drove from Picton to Blenheim. My tour ended a day earlier so I could go to Nelson to see my friend Shelley Monrad and finish my last 3 days relaxing before flying back to Afghanistan.
Never Say Good-bye
I reluctantly finished my 14-day South Island New Zealand mountain biking tour with Pacific Cycles. It was really sad to leave everyone. I got misty-eyed having to leave a day earlier than everyone. Through challenges, sweat, laughter and beer we became very close as a group. There is no such thing as saying good-bye; it is more like a "see ya later" because we plan on meeting in the near future in Europe.
Her Beauty & Grace
As I sat in Christchurch Airport and reflected, many thoughts and emotions went through my mind. I was at the Coffee Club, just finishing a pesto bruschetta and an orgasmic bailey's cheesecake. I could not believe my vacation was finished. It went by that fast and now the journey was nearly complete and back to reality.
A moment of nearly breaking down transpired when I was in the Nelson airport right before boarding the plane. I saw two ladies (perhaps a Mum & daughter) and they were hugging each other tightly for a long time. I could feel the emotions emitting between these two beings. The energy transferred to me and my eyes misted uncontrollably. Sadness had set in like the low lying clouds right before a rainstorm.
I am really going to miss this place! I am not leaving a friend, lover or family member, I am leaving a place that is welcoming and warm; somewhere I could call home. The mountains bowed to my heart as if embracing me one more time as I walked towards the plane. It was tough to imagine not seeing these beautiful mountains and aqua, teal waterways for a long time.
Before I embarked the plane, I knew I had one more chance to see her beautiful terrain and gorgeous face, so I prepared myself mentally while I waited for the plane to arrive at the gate. This was not a “Good-bye” like I said before; this was a “See ya later!” My heart was filled with an intense love and warmth for the people I had met during my mountain biking trip and for a heavenly place that exudes nature, freedom and openness.
May New Zealand always keep me in her heart; I will keep her in my heart. It is a long term relationship that I will continue to build from now and into the many years to come. Until next time, bon voyage and safe travels.


